So it just maybe what what I would have liked more anyways. (I'm still small myself at 6.0, almost everyone is at least 7+ they say)Īlso, I'm actually more of a bottom verse (I think haven't had sex since then actually). He was smaller than me, at around 5-5.5, which is about average according to statistics. I did not give head, but I just tugged on him a little. I think he wanted me to be super aggressive and controlling/dominant which I learned isn't really me "in the budoir." At least not with hookups/when I'm uncomfortable (because I'd love to tie someone up and stuff) I wasn't getting off to head as much as I was intrigued by the sensation. He gave head first, which is still an "alien" sensation to me. Well this is ruined now, he's going to tell everyone I'm no good, this is taking too long, he's gonna think theres something wrong with me, what if I have ed already, why isn't this working, i want to give up but I don't want to insult him And while I was working on finishing up (he finished before me) I just kept thinking This is so much work, I'm tired, i just have to do this then i can get a good guy to like me, why do I haveto do this for guys to like me, is this the only way a guy can like me, I thought I was fairly good-looking now high school is over, am i not attractive, am i not good enough for anything except a booty call, am i even a person or am I just a disposable "public phallus" The real bad part was my headspace during it. It also took forever to finish because he got stamina-enchancing condoms for whatever reason. Unfortunately I can't separate the emotion/attachment from sex (which obviously I didn't know until then), I need an emotional investment to enjoy it, but I didn't have one. He was nice, a little older, followed campfire rules I'd say. So I figured I didnt actually have sex so I still had the "virgin smell" on me. I couldn't finish, so I just left.Ī little later on, I tried to get with better looking guys, or at least guys who were my type to no avail. He came to dry humping while kissing me, and just kinda quit. He gave head which was more weird than a turn on, and was really into kissing, and I wasnt but i thought I'd go along and then I'd be set to compensate with better guys because I won't be a virgin and they wouldn't avoid me (yeah I was stupid). Definitely not my type, but I just wanted to shred up the V card, because I thought you just had to get it out of the way.Īll he wanted to do was kiss and give head. So I got on the grindr and found some guy. I was 22, and thought that nobody would want me because I'm a virgin (Nobody seemed to want me as a virgin). I think I told this story on reddit before, we more info about hom that led up to this.
I then spent all evening and all night trying to figure out what happened. Next thing i know, his pants and undies are on the floor, he's wearing just a shirt, his ankles are on my shoulders, and im jackhammering him on his couch.
It was so fucking fast, i was just stunned, didnt believe what was happening but i instantly went full hard on.
I barely messed with my underwear before he leaned up, opened the front pocket and had my Dick in his mouth.
I pulled down my zipper, he didn't say anything still, so i fondled with the front of my underwear just trying to make him stop me, call his bluff. I pretended to undo my belt, waiting for him to backdown, but he just looked up at me all expectantly. I stood up, and turned to face him while he was sitting on the couch. Not mad at each other, just bullshittin and roastin eachother. My best friend in I were talking shit to each other.